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sick again today, but a little better. i feel sort of against taking any medicine that reduces fevers because of an article my brother gave me that says that fevers are necessary to burn bacterias and viruses, that they exist for a reason and we can't just cover them up just to be happy. i am not one to avoid suffering if i am meant to feel it, so here i am, spending another two hours in bed this afternoon. ginger, though, i will take. thank you, cwas! i have not tried the ginger/peppercorn mixture, but i will be sure to. i had two huge cups of ginger mixed with honey and lemon, hot, and it made me feel much better both times. and it is true that i should not have had a milkshake if some of the flu was in my chest and head. why do i do this? a throwback to being little and how my dad would bring me a milkshake when i was home sick from school. so rare, and so good of him to leave his busy job just to see me either unresponse and not hungry in bed or seemingly well jumping on the couch watching tv. no dairy today!

i woke late, worked on this little drawing, which was fun to do in an experimental way and not with the stiffness of a huge, expensive piece of paper. i don't think it's beautiful, but i'm working on it. it's really amazing how i don't draw as well when i'm sick. i can understand not writing as well, not thinking clearly enough to put words beside each other in groundbreaking breathtaking ways, but i should be able to draw a dressmaker pin!

then a meeting for two hours, then arguing an overdraft fee. (to no avail so that i said, okay i'll take my money to another bank, and they gave me hundreds of dollars in cash without checking my license to see if i am who i said i am or anything. wierd.) then off to school to draw, but instead i took my big drawing paper home because everyone was in spring break mode and chatty which was wonderful but my throat was starting to turn into dressmaker pins, so i left with my paper, ready to walk and then draw, but when i walked in the door i felt so sick that i fell into bed and fell asleep until now. i am very lucky to be sick over spring break, and to have a wonderful fiance who comes right to me in bed and asks what he can do, if i need soup, can he buy me anything at the store, do i want him to take my temperature, etc. not cooing, not out of control as much as all that sounds, just gentle and empathetic right when i need him to be.