first day in the studio, and it was good to be around art-people energy and to be in my studio full of very good light (though not as good shadows as the chandelier) and to really see my drawings all pinned on the wall. i want more darkness, more tragedy, more complication, but inherently i feel that i know what and why i'm moving in this direction. jane said today that i must have moved away from the large paper because i was scared of it, but really i don't think it was fear. it was an issue of composition and of showing the shifting of time and the inherent tragedy of decomposition and accumulation's inability to fix. the components become characters that show up, disappear, show up again. i'm moving through time, and that feels to me like a poem and i know better how to manipulate it.